post is in today..

If you are wondering why I havent been posting, its because I dont know how I feel.
Im okay, though right now I feel rejected, outside and alone.
And still I know I will get through it.
I know there will be people fighting side by side with me.
I know its gonna be good... but then again I know it will all go downhill again.

I helped out at the new cafe again yesterday (surely I told you about that? no? well.. my friends mom is starting up a new cafe and Ive been there working some). It was relaxing. Washing windows, dishes, espressomachines, putting chairs and tables together and to their places.
And [pausing.. telephone ringing..]
now I have to go again.
Ill write the rest later.

Edit:
Its now 23.25 pm and I got home a while ago.
Just to get you really confused: Im happy right now.
See how twisted my emotional life is.?
The phonecall was from the coffeeshop. Got to do some work again. nice. moniiiiiii...
And after that I got to see some japanese dance. Pretty, colorful and limber ladies. Happiness I drink thee...
Coffee tasted good after the performance, especially when it was combined with some good ol' shitchating (yea yea spellling errors.. look at me ignoring them ;))
nightly walks with the dog are also highly appreciated...
come to think of it... bye.